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birth motherhood

You Made Me A Mom

7 years ago today, I gave birth to my first baby, my daughter, my whole life. I was absolutely terrified for so many reasons. For one, I had never given birth before

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motherhood

Mama, It Is Enough.

There is a height chart on the wall that’s never been written on. There is a height chart on the wall reminding me that I didn’t do the “parenting thing” I planned to do.

There’s a baby book on the shelf with two pages filled out. Reminding me daily I failed at that too.

There are so many things we plan to do when we have kids. So many things. And instead of focusing on the things we actually do, we focus on the things we don’t.

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grief mental health motherhood

We All Bloom When We Are Ready

After my second child was born, my neighbor asked if he could plant a pear tree in my yard to mate with his pear tree. It was perfect because I was struggling with what to do with my sons placenta, and it just clicked,