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birth motherhood

The Greatest Joy Of Our Lives

For days, weeks really I thought I’d wake up at 2:30 in the morning like the other two kids, have my water break, and it would be birth time. But days went by, nights went on, and even with daily contractions, there was no baby.

The week of my third child’s birth I was having consistent contractions that would just… stop. It’s actually called Prodromal Labor, and I had it with all 3 of my pregnancies. I’d be up all night thinking it was the night, and fall asleep. I’d wake up to it all gone.

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breastfeeding motherhood

When It’s Time To Night Wean…

Night weaning is not an easy decision to make. Or maybe for some it’s the easiest one… I guess it depends on who you ask. For me, I knew it was the right time when our breastfeeding relationship became one sided. My child wanted to nurse more than I could handle (whether physically or emotionally), and I needed a break. Breastfeeding is like any relationship,

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grief motherhood

A Motherless Mother’s Day

Tomorrow is Mother’s Day. For many, it’s a day full of joy and laughter, but for some, including me, it’s a day of sadness and longing for someone who’s no longer there. As a mother, it’s like being torn in two directions. I am so blessed to have 3 children who I love with everything I am, but it doesn’t take away from the fact that my mother died. A constant reminder that I should celebrate the day, but it is also incredibly devastating.